这个星期发生的一点一滴。。。

my tag for event =)

The first activity after the handover of Community Service Society.
The society that I had been serving for about 9 months since last year.
A Piece of Hope Campaign, a campaign carried out to raise donation from the public to an orphanage in Klang - Rumah KIDS.
Although this may be something I used to do in the past, no matter in Leo or St John. The feeling is quite different. I don't really know how to describe about the feeling. I guess it is because of the people what I am going around to collect donation from. They are all my friends of me. May be due to the area that I am going around to collect the donation as well - around campus.
A week of collecting donation, I can see that most of the students I approached are quite willing to give donation to help out. May be due to group confirmation? Because I had been approaching those in group. Well, there are some who show us the face like "Why should I care?" "I am not the one benefited from this.". Feel happy  and also sad to so both extreme type of people around you. Perhaps this is the so called reality world that we will be facing soon after graduating. This event had finally came to an end - 20.7.2012 Friday.
Sincerely, I appreciate those who are so supporting and make me really feel that this world is still filled with love and care. =)

group counselling members and tutor - Ms Lee

This picture shows my group members and also my cute tutor Ms Lee for the subject Group Counselling. I think this is the first time whereby we are taking a group photo together after so many weeks together. I would like to thanks Dr Kok, our lecturer to actually planned for this sharing session. I really experienced and learned a lot from the sharing from all the group members. I also have a better understanding on my friends. This is really a rare opportunity for me, as I don't think that we will have this type of sharing among ourselves if it is not because of this kind of arrangement. Thank you friends for your sharing of the past, the childhood memory that we used to have. The future dreams and goals that we would like to achieve. I believed that all of us did enjoy ourselves throughout the 8 weeks of sharing although our group sharing are quite emotional compared to other groups whereby laughter can be heard almost every session. I guess I played the most part in creating sadness in this group sharing session. Appreciate the time with all of you. Although is not a long one but really thousand of thank you to everyone of you.

我画的画

这幅画是昨天上课的时候为了要分享而画的。不是很美的说。但是我觉得我有努力了。本来想要带来的感觉是平静的。哪里知道在分享的时候突然为了这幅画，眼泪不由自主的就滑下了。
最近的生活其实真的遇到了蛮多的起起落落。一些朋友对我的忽冷忽热，让我有一点不知道该怎样去面对。
最近的我，在逃避。逃避责任。逃避压力。
睡觉成了我唯一可以做的事情。因为唯有睡觉我才真的不会胡思乱想。
最近的我也不想要因为自己的事去打扰人家。就这样我很努力的把自己的心事藏起来。在脸上画上了微笑。过着每一天都在笑的日子。想说这样可能就会真的快乐。但是，回到家，进了房间，关起门，我就想要睡觉逃避。有一点点无奈。是我自己想太多了吗？也许是这样吧。知道了自己的问题，就要努力的去解决。我会努力的。

上学咯

这个是我昨天在骑着脚车的时候拍的照片。
拍了过后觉得还蛮不错看得。背影蛮美的。
昨天我的朋友告诉我说，我嘴里说的不在乎，不在意其实都不是真的。
回到家的我，突然想到这句话。
想说，有谁会付出了很多然后一点在乎，在意别人对于自己的认可，认同的呢？
我想要的只是你们会看得到我的付出。
你们会感恩我付出的。
最重要的是请你不要把我为你们的付出当成是理所当然的就好。我有很努力的去不想，不在乎，不在意。但是我也是人。我也会累。累的时候只希望也有人会主动来关心。这样会很过分吗？
我真的不知道。
我不是很敢要去接触人。不是很敢要去关心的。
因为我不想人家为我烦。不想人家因为我的关心变成了他们的负担。我真的不想要。
昨晚很早就睡了，半夜起来的我突然发现到。我真的在乎。我真的在意。在乎在意你是否看到我。但是不是每一个人。而是我在乎，我在意的那一个人。你看得见吗？你明白吗？你知道我在说的人是你吗？

PHP Module 1

不知不觉的我们相处的时间也有6个星期了。这一次是我们大家一起上最后一堂php了。突然觉得时间好快哦。还没有真真的认识到每一个你们。但是，说真的我很开心认识到你们啊。哈哈。一般喜欢分享的你们。一般搞怪的你们。一般活泼开朗的你们。哈哈。这几个星期来一起上PHP其实还蛮平静的。没有压力。谢谢你们在这里分享的一切。让我觉得原来不是我一个人会面对到这样的问题。大家不管怎样，在学校碰面还是要打招呼。有空也可以约出来大家一起喝茶聊天。最重要的是因该要拍照吧？大家都有当明日模特儿的feel。哈哈。大家要加油哦。很开心认识到你们。