November
what is happening in this month?
I used to anticipate so much of the arrival of November
and since when, it has been a disaster month for me?
and I wonder.
it had been years
and the same thing keep on repeating
and timing is just right
November
I wanted to write down the whole thing
yet I couldn't bring myself to do so
I wonder is it a right thing for me to do this
to write down
and to be remembered always
or should I just keep this memory within myself
and never let it out
I wonder
I don't want such thing to continue
is there way for me to stay away?
how to stay away?
you may know my name
but you don't know about my story
and I don't know how to start telling
and this is too scary that I don't know
whether I should feel proud of it or not
this is just too much shame than proud I guess
I am trying hard to smile
trying hard to remember those who care for me
trying my best to remember those I care for
yet somehow I just could't forget about that someone
short term happiness is always the one that is really hard to be forgotten
do you agree with me?
somehow....
I feel a little hate within myself.
I am really trying hard
this is kinda tough
can only tell myself to SMILE,SMILE AND KEEP ON SMILING...
