快乐吗?

“你快乐吗？”

这个问题很普通。

但是对有些人来说，

是很有意思的。

很多人也许对这个问题早已没了感觉。

对我来说，

这个问题包含了很多意思

是一种关心，

人与人之间应该要有的关心。

是一种期待，

期待着周围的人都跟自己一样快乐。

是永远，

希望能够用关心来保持着永远要好的关系。

但是

这些关心与问候

对有些人来说

真的很多余

不知道

为什么？

难道有人关心你

就真的让你那么痛苦吗？

打扰到你了吗？

明说好了

不需要避开

这也许对你，对他都好。

也许是一种解脱。

this is just for fun.

suddenly think of it.

wrote it since i got no mood to do any other things.

treasure every concern from others^^

smiling

just me^^

回到金宝三天了

说真的

我还没有真的习惯这里的生活

每样事情都要自己做

我知道长大了

是时候独立了

有时候，真的很累

想家了

我的笑容

不是每次都

那么真

那么灿烂的

我还怕

我还怕

可以读书就好吗？

我还怕考试

我还怕他的到来

他很快

多三个礼拜

（没记错的话）

presentation

我怕

自己做得不好

还怕

好累

好累

好累

我真的累了。

有回家，真的要好好待在家了。

自己家是最美丽的天堂

陈宗元

再累也要趁过去

用微笑来感染周围的人吧

加油!!!

back hometown

finally i got the chance to go back hometow last friday night.
first of all,would like to thanks jason and also alan.
both of them are so great as they fetch me to medan gopeng,ipoh on that night.
dont have to take public bus.
haha.
10.15pm bus reach bp at 4am.
mood got disturbed by stupid ptptn.
rejected my application with 'reasons'.

cleared my mind so that i can enjoy my day back home.
had breakfast at home.
then went to school.
back and went to BPMALL,UNIPENTA,SUMMIT.
bought lot of things.
thanks mum.
time flies.
dinner time,went to realjoy.
obviously,the food and service there arent as good as before.
forget about it also.
back home.
went to school again.

back before 12.watched some television programme.
had not watch television for a month.
haha.
sleep.home sweet home.
nice.

sunday morning.
woke up,keep stuffs..
breakfast and back kampar.
what a rush trip.
mum and family,friends...
i miss you guys...
too bad got too little time....

letter

writing essay seems to be so easy for me when i were in secondary
but now,
what is happenning?
i dont know.
writing a letter seems to be so so so hard.
for the first time i am thinking of how to write a letter
and i used about 3hours in completing this assignment.
what the!!
my eyes are closing!!!
there are still things waiting..
debate on tuesday tutorial class!!!
discussion??campaign??modelling???
speech??reports....wow....serious!!!
no more procrastinating...!!!!!

是我过于敏感吗？

昨天很不开心的说。。。
也不知道怎么了。。。
突然觉得自己的存在好多余。。。
以前是这样，
来到这里也没有差别。。。
怎么了？
这感觉又来了。。。

朋友，
全部都是新的。
认识了有三个礼拜那么长吧。。。
了解他们？
不，完全没有。
应为我不会了解别人。

每个人都有嘴巴，
每个人都有头脑。
他们喜欢想的，喜欢讲的
我不能够有意见。

很累，
在这里一个月了。
没有回到家。
昨天，突然好想家。
说真的，第一次。。。
那么想要回家的感觉。。

谢谢你们。
女士们，想说的是。。。
你们喜欢给我外号我没关系。。。
在我面前大声说出来。。。
这样我比较不会那么难过。。。
你们要说我娘，我也没有办法。。。
这个就是我。。。
我尝试了很多。。很久。。
结果还是一样被讲。。
算了。。
我会做我自己而不是你们想要看到的我。

不能太过依赖。。
能够自己做就自己做。。
这是我个人最新的principle！！！！
加油了！！！

想想想

一个人的时候就是喜欢想。
是也想，不是也想。
对也想，错也想。
为什么那么喜欢想。
想要的得不到。
想做的做不到。
只是在想，有用吗？
想了那么多，
烦恼跟着加多。
想，有用吗？
不喜欢想太多的我，
却在自己一个人的时候开始想了。
想什么？
不知道。
不清楚。
不懂得。
哈哈。
想太多。。。
我疯了。。。

TIMID

i am timid.
dont know why.
and since when all this started.

i am afraid of getting too close with outhers.
i am afraid of getting to know others too.
the worst part is that i restricted myself from lot of thing.
example not to care on others.
if possible dont ever try on that.
i try to talk less.
let others have the opportunity to talk.
learning to be a listener.
most of the time i keep my mouth shut up.
if possible.

you know what.
i am kind of person who dont like others to be passive.
yet i restricted myself from being over active.
got no choice,
sometime i need to be active.
to get to know new people other there.

i am timid.
and this caused lot of conflict between myself.
should i or shouldnt i?
i wonder.

怎么了

今天是星期六（11/06/11)
整天都在家的我，觉得好无聊。
没做什么。
好没意思。

下午过去邻居家聊天。
傍晚回家睡觉。
过后一起准备晚餐。

继续上网。
无聊。
刚才出去跟朋友喝茶。
聊得不错开心。

回到家。
上网。
突然心里感觉怪怪的。
空虚在作怪吗？
看了看朋友的照片。
想家了。想到过去的我。
想到朋友与家人在身边的感觉。
怪怪的。
有点痛，有点酸。

过去的我过这普通的生活。
都没有很快乐。

现在的我呢？
新的开始，开始了吗？
不想再像以前的我。
朋友。重要吗？
重要。
但是我不能够过于重视他们。
不能太过依赖。
做自己！靠自己！一个人，没问题吧？
家人，我会加油的。
^.^
不会让你们没有面子。
不会浪费你们的钱的！

开心开心，我要开心！

AM I?

am i happy?
i laugh almost everyday.
i smile to everyone who pass by me in U.

am i aware?
i try to avoid conflict with anyone.

how many type of personality of people are there?
i wonder.
i worry.
i am afraid of.

maybe due to loneliness i used to have before this?
i guess so.
should treasure almost everyone i have around me now.
know why?
because i got no kin here.
the only relative i have, my cousin.
only one.
so friends are inportant to me.

i will help whenever you guys need.
not trying to buy hearts of you guys there.
not playing kind role.
just wanna help.
sincerely.
hoping that non is going to misused me.

i guess you guys dont really know what i am writing.
is ok^^
i know it myself..
guess it yourself..

03/04/2011 congratulation bangling jie jie & 28/05/2011 congratulation brother alfred



had been a long time since i attend my relative's wedding

but this year i attended 2

next year should have more ang pow.

oops..this is not the main point.

i feel so happy for them as both couples are such a loving one.

wonder who is next in my family.

my eldest brother?

perhaps.

couldnt attend for his registration held yesterday.

06/06/2011

hope that i am able to attend their wedding.

haha.

^^

nothing much to post here.

well wish them all the best in their new stage of life.

hoping for more nephews and nieces.

haha.

although i look young but i dont mind people calling me uncle here and there.

waiting for more more more good news from you guys!

congratulation^^

after introduction.....

here come my second post after introducing you guys about my aim,
and why am i having a new blog here.

is time for me to talk about life in KAMPAR.
the first time i came here is with my uncle.
really a small town and i feel no worry at all as uncle is with me.
second time was with friend, wenhui in edward's dad's car.
reached safely and met up with my uncle to search for our accomodation.
everything is still fine at that time.
the thrid time,which is the time i am moving myself to a new environment for long.
at least 3 years.

now the real life start.
upon reaching, four of us started to tidy up our new house.
( hoping to stay here for 3 years. i am lazy of moving arouund.)
we ended our job about 10pm?
went out to search for dinner.
( in between we went to buy some tables,chairs and bicycle which is going to be our transport too.)

life continue...
we went to school for registration.
nothing much happen. just normal.
skip the orientation part.
( just not to forget,the sketch presented by senior during campus adjustment talk is really nice and funny )
here goes our life.
continue to decorate our new house.
trying to make it look really like a house.

skip weekend for another post.

is time for school.
first week of U life.
blur as we got no textbook.
everything base on lecture notes.
is so short that i dont know what i am learning.
most of the tutorial class start of with ice breaking.
but still i dont really know all my classmates' names.
haha.
skip skip skip.
( not to skip! i know how to cook. to know what i had cook kindly view my pictures in FB. will try to upload here too in future.)

thanks my cousin, kwannming gor gor..
( although i never call him like this in front of him before )
as he brought me to ipoh last saturday.
just to prevent myself from growing fungi on my body.
haha.
went to watch movie and have lunch&dinner there.
full of laughter during our trip as his friend is one of the joker i met.
is tiring but is great.
looking forward for our next trip.
haha.

brand new life,brand new start!

dont know why and am so lazy to know why my previous account got blocked.
so,for now i shall start a new life with a brand new blog i am having now.
gonna post up whatever feeling i have here from tim to time.
( if i am given the time to do so. hoping for that.)

to have a brand new start, i shall forget what i had written in my previous post.
maybe that is what GOD wanted from me.

well,i am now doing my psychology in UTAR.
i remember clearly that i told people out there before that i am not going to enter UTAR for sure.
but how come i am here?
due to financial problem.(perhaps)
get over with it. dont bother to have an answer.
the main thing i got to do now is : to score as much as i can during my U life here.
another thing is that i learned something new.
there isn't any exact. things do change from time to time.
this is what we going to face when we grow up.
decision change, surrounding change, mind change and everything you know change.
the only thing that dont change is : we got to continue with our living.

to fulfill our mission of staying alive is to live to our everyday to the fullest.

got to give myself more chances to outstand among people.
i am not trying to show off anything here.
just want to give myself a chance to prove myself that i am not useless.
just to paint my life wirh colours, so that it is not going to waste my parents effort of raising me up.
good luck and all the best to myself and friends around me!!!