random

3 days had passed by just like this
thing seems to remain the same
yet the feeling seems to be different
second year of University
mates that had been learning together
seems familiar
yet we are like a strangers

I have to say that I am glad that I get to join activities in my first year of degree
I got to meet many people
from many different faculties
it seems to be great
yet at times, I felt lonely
the boredom in Kampar

I wonder who am I now
and what am I exactly is
introvert/extrovert?
I don't understand

I can be crazy or very extra extrovert at a time
I can be really a loner at times too

for instance
my mobile phone is in a silent mode for don't know how many days
if I deduct those message from Maxis and Digi
and also message people asking help from me

I used to be the one who always sms others like
"how are you?"
"what are you doing?"
but then
I do get tired when no one answer
I believed the development of Facebook had come to replaced sms

hence, I start to find others to chat in Facebook
yet
the same thing happened
I am like disturbing others when I got reply as if I am not worth to even bother

I don't like to disturb others
I don't like to force people
things changed
and I changed too

I am a loner
waiting for people to date me out
dreaming to myself
and this dream will never come true
even if it is
is like once in a while

maybe people will ask
"why don't you plan?"
"why don't you asked people out?"
to be frank
is because
I am too frequent of being rejected
and the worst part is to be ignore

=)
this is me
a complicated one
yet a simple minded one at times

goodnight =)

谢谢

心情突然变得很低落

是因为要回去了的原因吗

也许吧

今天是妈咪的100天纪念日

买了大房子让他住

买了车子（有司机的哦）

买了motor,电视，karaoke system 给他

今天大哥，大嫂也在妈咪的灵位前给他敬茶

跑去拍照片

哪里知道

眼泪差点落下

就跑了出来

妈咪，你等今天等了很久了吧

妈咪，今天开心吗

因该是开心的

就这样100天了

还没有能够让你过无忧无虑的日子

也许是这一生中的遗憾吧

在看看家里的妈妈

其实

真的很想说

感谢你对我们几个孩子的照顾

（写着写着都想要哭了）

家里最近要办喜事了

其实很开心

但是看到妈妈每一天劳累的整理家里

却帮不上什么

真的很难过也很担心

毕竟妈妈他也不在那么年轻了

现在的我

只是想着快点毕业

考到好成绩

然后可以回报妈妈和daddy

不要再让他们为我付出了

爸爸，妈咪

你们在天上要保有我们大家

平平安安的

不要再有任何的病痛发生

我想你们了

我喜欢看戏。

今天

看到了一部电影

‘听说’

开始看得时候觉得有点奇怪

因为这真部电影里

对白很少很少

几乎真部电影都是用手语来呈现的

我也只能够看字幕来了解

总体来说呢

这是一部好电影

因该是一部爱情电影

还蛮有意思的

不懂要怎么形容这部电影

纯纯的爱

浪漫加点甜蜜

给他一个赞

=)

除了那部电影

最近也在看新加坡的一部连续剧

‘跳浪’

这部戏是在说着老师与学生的关系

里面也说了很多人生道理

明白的人会觉得好看

有意思

看不懂的人

也许就会觉得很无聊

我呢？

学了很多

也觉得是一部好看的戏

值得值得

*要开学了。活动要减少。读书要努力。休息没能忘。哈哈。我的人生，自己掌握，自己决定，自己走。*

I don't get it =)

I don't get it

I don't understand it

why are people being so hard to satisfy?

toward others

toward themselves

toward everything around them

does brooding over what had happened really help?

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received my results for my last semester of year 1 degree

and for the first time I got a 'C' in my result

kinda hard to accept the 'C' in my results slips

and got a little upset over it when I first look at it

because I really did put in some effort for this paper

after a while of cooling down myself

I asked myself - does brooding over it helps?

and the answer is an exact one - is just a waste of time.

I know what situation am I in

I understand that I need to put in more effort in coming semester

I know exactly that I had been neglecting my studies for a while in the last semester

therefore, I am going to take this time as a lesson for me

I should be really glad that at least I pass the paper

=)

I know exactly that I should put in the exact amount of effort in order to get what I am aiming for

'no pain, no gain'

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new semester

a brand new year (second year of degree life)

a brand new start for me

my new resolution for myself : improve my CGPA and enjoy my activities in U life

although I know clearly that it is going to be tough

I will have a tough time in managing my time

but guess what

I have confident in myself

I will SURVIVE =)

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I know I am nothing to many of them outside

I don't expect everyone to agree with me

still I am going to say this

'is no use to brood over the past.'

'result is not the most important thing.'

'you had tried you best.'

'what is the most important is the process you had gone through.'

'humans' life is not only for study, is not for academic purpose.'

'we are born to enjoy our life, to fulfil our responsibility.'

as long as nothing we do go against our conscience

I don't think we will have anything to regret about

so, friend

cheer up

and enjoy

all the best in this coming semester =)

work hard people

but the most important thing is study smart =)

random

我是不是因该要跟你说一声 - 生日快乐呢？

就算跟你说了又怎样呢？

没有说又会怎样呢？

答案都因该是：没有怎样。

=）

我们再也不是刚开始认识的我们

就连普通朋友见面都可能会说上几句话

我们半句也没有

你说过没有几个人会记得你的生日

我，没有忘记

但是选择把它遗忘

不去记得 （是好事吗？）

哈哈

不知道要写些什么所以来这里乱写

祝今天生日的你们，生日快乐

=)

人生

朋友是什么？

人长大了
对朋友这两个字的定义
也随着年龄的增加而改变

以前的自己
很天真的以为
‘我为人人，人人为我’
真的会发生
大人都会说
如果你要人家对你好，你就先要对人家好
不然就是，电视剧里的
忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空

这些话
听了
也尝试了

但是在现实生活里
会发生的机会有多少呢？

人家都说
‘人生如戏，戏如人生’
真的是这样吗？

在我的生活里
我尝试了不去计较别人怎样对我
尝试告诉自己，凡事对得起自己就好

我真的有在做

也许我是透明的
就算有了什么改变也没有人会发现
等到我离开人间了，会不会有人发现呢？

朋友
我重视你
所以你说的每一句话
我都在乎

今天下午
开心的出门
但是却听到一些自己不喜欢的东西
扰乱了我的情绪
想说要直接信息你的
但是因为是别人告诉我的
所以也不想不分青红皂白的就乱找你理论

以前到现在（虽然认识也没很久，最多一年吧）
我都因为在乎你这位朋友
所以你说了多难听的话我都不在乎
也想过
我们会有可能是最好的朋友嘛
现在我很清楚这个答案

我们不可能会是好朋友
因为你
你的一举一动，你的一句话
让我真的不敢再靠近你

这已经不是第一次了
你说过的
过去的就不要再提了
我也很白目的相信你
也觉得我们真的能够忘记那个误会
但是你
你忘不了

如果今天我听到的不是来之你
也许我可以当那些人在放屁
但是我听到的是来之你

说过对别人好不要求回报
但是我只要求公平的对待
难道就真的那么难吗？

现在的我
不知道还该不该相信你说的话

如果你看得到
也明白我部落各里
写的是你
请看清楚最后这一段

我陈宗元，是一个重情义的人。人家对我好，我会记得。也会尝试用各种方式去对你好。但是，如果你真的当我是朋友；我部要求你对我有任何回报。我只是希望你不要乱用我的好意。世界上没有完美的人，我也是。我要的是-你如果对我有什么不满意可以当面告诉我。如果你觉得我配不上做你的朋友也请你直接告诉我。我是人，不会厚脸皮的要求你做我的朋友。我真的不需要。谢谢。

*如果你们读了觉得我说话过分了，对不起。人都是自私的。这些都是我现在的心情。你们可以不认同。但是我不会去理会。感恩。*

大学第一年 - 就这样过去了。

也许不会有人来看我的部落各
也许这一年对有些人来说没那么重要
也或者都有自己的故事吧

对我来说
这一年
有太多的回忆
也有些遗憾

在去年的这个时候
我做了一个很重要的决定
就是，离开家里
到一个很远的地方
开始了我的大学生活

去到了金宝
一个比BP还要更加乡村的地方
但，还是适应了那里的生活

三个学期= 一年
就这样过去了
这三个学期里
看到很多不一样的人
人心难测
也学会用平常心去对待每一个在我生命留下脚印的你们
不再那么在乎
也学会家人的重要
感恩我所拥有的
失去的，没能够的回来
所以
学会怎么的更加去感恩。

感动的一部电影。

不小心的开到了这个电影

看了一下觉得不错

所以就把它看完了

虽然这部电影是悲剧收场

但是

他让我有一种想要

恋爱的感觉

甜甜的

不需要轰轰烈烈

只求平平静静

这样就够了

幸福的感觉

电影里也拍到好多风景

好美，好美

让我想起了以前的一些回忆

海边，海风

真的太美了

好久好久没有到海边了

大自然是美妙的

他能够让人

放松心情

感觉宁静

感觉幸福

感觉自由

感觉热血

感恩

＊对我来说一段感情，是要遇到对的人。两个人在一起，不需要轰轰烈烈的爱情。平静，自然－也许比较适合我。恋爱，不代表我的全部。但是，恋爱在我心中也有它自己的地位。期待能够遇到对的人的那一天。＝］

wesak day

tonight is the night
when i used to join the rally for wesak day celebration back in BP

used to went to 佛教会 since young
brought there by daddy and mummy

during secondary,
went to the rally due to first aid duty,
is not really fun

remember went there once with william
i think is during our form5/ upper6?
to pray for our exam

still remember
although i dont join the rally every year
but we (mummy, grandma, aunt, cousins) will all walk out from  home
to PELICAN hotel
where the rally will pass by
looking at the 花车 and of course not forget to pray

this year us kinda different
wesak day and i am in kampar
awaiting to finish my exam and go back to BP once again
the feeling is kinda weird

i miss you, mummy and 爸爸
i miss the time we spent together

miss miss miss

hope both of you are doing fine
guess what
i cant wait for 9th of May to reach
i want to go home!!!
=]

amitabha _/\_

我。。。‘不累’

我不是万能的
拜托你们
考试的时期
你们压力
需要读书，我不也是一样吗

对不起
我也很压力
很累
真的

你们问我的每一个问题
我都好想要帮你们
给你们答复
但是
真的对不起
我累了
真的很累
真的很压力

如果没能够回复你们
真的对不起
我累
不是不想回
是没有力气了
真的

乱乱乱啊。。。

3 more to go...

2 down
3 more to go
first year of degree life is coming to an end soon
got to move on with second year

one whole year
the time passed slow yet so fast
flashing back what i had did in this one year
lot of wonderful memories
part of it kinda sad as well

life got to move on
thanks for those entered my life
make my memories a colourful one

i appreciate whatever i have had
and also things that i had lost

thanks for i am still alive ^^

be happy everyone

how is my second year and third year gonna be?

i wonder

and no one knows

O.<