random

3 days had passed by just like this
thing seems to remain the same
yet the feeling seems to be different
second year of University
mates that had been learning together
seems familiar
yet we are like a strangers

I have to say that I am glad that I get to join activities in my first year of degree
I got to meet many people
from many different faculties
it seems to be great
yet at times, I felt lonely
the boredom in Kampar

I wonder who am I now
and what am I exactly is
introvert/extrovert?
I don't understand

I can be crazy or very extra extrovert at a time
I can be really a loner at times too

for instance
my mobile phone is in a silent mode for don't know how many days
if I deduct those message from Maxis and Digi
and also message people asking help from me

I used to be the one who always sms others like
"how are you?"
"what are you doing?"
but then
I do get tired when no one answer
I believed the development of Facebook had come to replaced sms

hence, I start to find others to chat in Facebook
yet
the same thing happened
I am like disturbing others when I got reply as if I am not worth to even bother

I don't like to disturb others
I don't like to force people
things changed
and I changed too

I am a loner
waiting for people to date me out
dreaming to myself
and this dream will never come true
even if it is
is like once in a while

maybe people will ask
"why don't you plan?"
"why don't you asked people out?"
to be frank
is because
I am too frequent of being rejected
and the worst part is to be ignore

=)
this is me
a complicated one
yet a simple minded one at times

goodnight =)