i think i should start my blog in english again
this is because i had noticed that my english had been going down the slope
i told myself not to blog about any sadness here when i start to have this blog
yet i cant achieve what i had promised
what is the reason for me to always come to my blog to seek for refugee?
i dont know.
perhaps the reason is simple because i got no one to talk to
and the only one that i can talk to
freely without any worry is here
my blog
why?
the reason is simply because not many people out there actually care to have a look at it
even if yes
there wont be much comments or questioning from the
perhaps there are some rumours or gossips behind my back
but who cares?
this is my blog
i am the owner
as long as i didnt hurt anyone
i dont think i need to be afraid
am i right?
well, the purpose of being here is to letting off my steam
had been wondering what had i did wrong in my previous life
had i been owing anyone anything?
i wonder
things seems to be so granted to everyone around me
but not for myself
why am i feeling like i had been trying to giving in to people around me
just to get them stay with me?
just for me to escape from loneliness?
i really wonder
is time for me to think of myself
what should i do and what should i achieve for myself
start to think again
what is the purpose of maintaining
is it worth it for me to do all these
you may know who am i referring to
you may not
but is ok
no big deal about it
i am telling myself to let go
to give up
to just ignore everything
just to treat myself better
i think this is what i ought to do =]
face it with smile
and i gonna end it with smile too =]
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