我想要

突然觉得有点喘不过气。
我想要大声呐喊。
我想要快步奔跑。
我想要大声唱歌。
我想要回家。
虽然说，
家，金宝，
没查。
都是自己。
朋友好像都是做假的。
真的关心你的没有几个。
真的难过。
无奈。
几时才能够让我真的
遇到一个能够真的说心事的你？
不懂。
不敢想。
不敢有期望。
因为害怕失望。
周围的你们
加油
要幸福哦。

也许我的离去也不会有人察觉。

week9

have not been here for sometimes.
recently got lot of things to do.
got to hand up assignment and also sit for my last paper for midterm.
how time flies?
is already week 9.
and it is coming to an end of it.
got to have a stretch of presentation and assignment to hand up next week.
Monday - industrial/organisational psychology presentation.
Monday - hand up introduction to psychology assignment.
Tuesday - introduction to psychology presentation.
Wednesday - free
Thursday - should have a presentation
Friday - introduction to counseling presentation
after week 10.
got to buck up for my final.
should do so as i am kind of slacky.
got to start early.

*friends, buck up!no matter what happened,try to smile. i will always be there to be your listener if you want me to be. all the best friends.

today going to have a campaign at campus cafeteria.
got to 'FUCK OFF' at campus later.^^
hoping for lot lot of photos^^
all the best teammates^^

我说过

我说过

不会再一次让自己不开心

绝对不会因为不在乎我的存在的人不开心

在你选者逃避我的时候

想说

我走了

也许

我们的

友情

就只有这短短的两个月

那也没关系

不会因为

少了个你伤心

难过什么的

虽然感性的我

偶尔会emo

还是会让自己很开心

这学期后希望就

不会常常看到你

你过你的生活吧

再见了

‘朋友’

kampar

i am back in kampar.
went to ipoh on saturday night.
thanks jason and senior for fetching me there.
although i didnt really go travel in ipoh but still,
thanks marcus bro, for taking care of me there.
most importantly,
talking to you actually inspire me a lot.
your story is like so amazing.
am glad to have the chance to get to know you.
from now on i shall work hard for my own pathway.
thanks lion marcus.
^^
no photo taken le..==

金宝-学长

来到金宝
开始
有点不习惯

开始上课了
第一堂
被放飞机
。。。。。。。。。。
第一堂lecture class
期待
希望
讲师忘了
第一年第一学期的我们
说了好多听不懂的东西
接下来
整个礼拜都是这样

烦
碰见了以前的学姐
向他说了很多不满

她介绍了
第一年第二学期的课代表给我认识

算是我认识的第一个学长。
人超好的
很照顾我一下
教了我一些东西吧

第一次要回家
人生地不受的
好在有他和另外一个学长
特地开车载我到ipoh坐巴士回家

谢谢你们
我安全到家了
。。。。。。。。
时间过得很快
快要两个月了
今天他跟我说
他不读了
突然心好酸
很难过
怎么了？？
说不清楚

真的舍不得
哭了
谢谢你，学长。
你要开心哦
希望一切都顺顺利利。。
谢谢你对我的照顾。。

演戏

最近的我

好像

开始这演戏的生活了。

开始迷失自己了吗？

没有emo

我有多重性格

有时候可以很开心

很狂野

莫名其妙的

有时候

我可以一句话都不说

搞自毙

说好要开始新生后

却

不知不觉

又回到了过去

在想

人家都说我们必须做自己

不需要理会人家

对，没错

但是有谁能够保证

做自己的人不会被

DISCRIMINATE

觉得

世界很现实

每个人都要随着环境

改变而改变

这样才能保证你能够在这个社会生存

现在的我

没有安全感

真的

害怕

朋友

距离肯定有

亲密的好友

难啊!!

寂寞寂寞就好

也许。。

midterm

sat for my first midterm in my first year of degree life.
struggling to finish 4 topics in 2 days.
learnt not to procrastinate.
gonna prepare for another midterms for 2 subjects next week.
on wednesday.
got to read up to 13/14 chapters for 2 subjects.
wonder can i make it or not.
can i remember what i read?
i wonder.

thought i am going to be very nervous.
due to today's questions are all MCQ.
i am still able to manage with it.
yet i did a lot of stupid mistakes in this paper.
sorry to whom it may concern.
i really tried my best.
hopefully result is not going to disappoint me in the end.

*praying*

what to write?
i am not sure also.
just feel like crying.
why?
i dont know.
i thought i am happy enough to be who am i.
but why?
seems like i am still as fragile.
starting from tomorrow.
should i just shut my mouth up?
maybe i should
i dont need lot of friends.
i just need a few.
nice one.sincere one.care for me.
enough.
i had have enough.
is it what i had done still not enough?
i tried to pleased almost everyone around me.
i tried.
but is like i should not do so.
is not worth it.
i am like a clown.
had enough for being a clown to others.
shall stop.
hoping to get out from this mood.
damn!
i need to study and deal with my assignments.
i dont know what is in others mind.
hope none of us going to procrastinate anymore.
GOD.i need you to be by my side.

今天过得不错。

今天早上，
是我第一次在大学
演讲。
觉得自己做的不过好。
应为过于紧张。
希望不会不及格。
不提也罢。

下午，跟朋友一起听了一个讲座。
关于‘精神健康’。
学了好多。
觉得自己还能够更加好。

在读心理学的我，
学了好多theory。
希望有一天能够让自己真的改变。
不再那么情绪化。
也希望能够经我所能的帮助需要的人。

现在的我，
心理想着的是，
我要做自己。
一样的。
如果有人需要我帮忙，我会帮。
但是要在我能力所能。

但是请你们不要当成是理所当然的。
我还是人。
也许，
你们看到的我，跟之前会有所不一样。
不用担心。
只是在改变自己。
接受自己。
应为之前的我
好像都是在为别人而活。
现在的我要做自己了。。