why are you sending me PM in FB?

how much I wished that you can just ignore me.

I really, sincerely don't like it

the way that you treat one nice 

and at the next second you scolded as if the person is moron

I sincerely don't know how to face you

I sincerely feel hurt by you

I appreciate whatever you had done

but I just don;t know how to face you

>.<'''

喝了好多好多水
但是为什么感觉还是不够水呢？
不明白
豆豆又找上我的脸了
不喜欢
天气闷闷的
虽然我知道我因该要感恩
因为还能够活着
但是没有心情做任何的事
什么都没有做到的感觉
压力啊
无奈这个星期五要回家
希望在这五天里面能够做完该做的
不然回家也没意思了
TT

朋友，一路好走

今天的心情真的有复杂到

3点才睡的我6点就起床准备8点上课
去到班上
可悲，只有一个人
其他人陆陆续续的才慢慢的来到了班上

很普通的上课

下午去了第二堂的PHP
counsellor叫我们全部要分享一些生活上的事物
然后就叫我们讨论helper必须要具备什么条件
简单带过的我
觉得其他人都好用心的述说他们的故事
以几个故事真的让我一度的想要掉眼泪
因为，我也经历过那些故事

然后就继续上课
普通，钓鱼

放学了
期待已久的gathering登场了
从去任你吃还了地点到grand kampar hotel
出息的人没有很多
但是我相信大家都是开心的

接着就到了jennifer,helen和holiday的新家
也有一段时间没有遇见他们了
虽然话题好像减少了
但是关系还算不错
突然接到shiouxian打来的电话
但是突然挂断了
急忙的打回去才知道是yiwei要kaypau的电话号码
突然觉得心里不安
查看了面子书才发现到kaypau的妹妹，kayshing过世了
心情也再一次的开始低落了

看到面子书上每个朋友对你的过世感到难过，惊讶的态度
让我一次又一次的感到难过
想起你去年跟我们说的那句‘谢谢’
想起你跟护士小姐说打针很痛的时候
想起你的妈妈看见我们捐血给你的时候开心的笑容
想起你妈妈为你哭泣的时候
这些画面在我的脑海中不断的出现
不知不觉的眼眶也红了
朋友，一路好走
安息吧
不痛了 =)
一切都过去了

freedom? democracy?

every country has their own problem
every citizens will have their own concern towards their country's development

for me
as a young adult that don't really get involved in politic much
that don't really care what the government intended to do with the country
(maybe I care, is just that I rarely speak out)
had read a news that LYNAS can continue their operation with the TOL with them

in the news
stated that the company had achieved all the aspect
as well as rules are more stringent
compared to those international company
this statement really make me feel kinda unbelievable

is not I don't believe
but everyone knows well
how do they operate
I mean those issuing license

I guess everyone know
our country
we have the freedom to speak
we are practising democracy
but I wonder why voices from the people can't be heard
or they had chosen not to listen at all

it seems like people freedom to speak
democracy
is all a lie
nothing of this is true here

happy fathers' day

today is fathers' day

i would like to wish every father

happy father's day

especially my father and daddy

thinking of years back

i just realised 

i had not celebrate with anyone of them before

i wonder is it because i am too young

i dont have the sense of how important is family to me

am now a 21 year old young adult

starting to realised the importance of family members

but then 

i lost the chance to celebrate with my father

he is no longer with us in our eyesight

can only see him in photos and in memory

till this moment when i start to realised the importance

i still am not able to celebrate for them

for me, studying in kampar.

had i made a mistake for not going back this week?

i wonder.

i am like wasting my time here in kampar during weekend

i suppose i can celebrate with daddy next week when i return

shall give him a treat then =)

happy fathers' day =)

=)

我今天
整个人的脸因该是黑的
看穿我的人
谢谢你们

给我的朋友
今天我主动向你道歉了
如果你还是对我做的事有所不满
我真的不知道该怎么办了
我重视你这位朋友
从心底的重视

我们之间的误会太多了
真的不想有再多的误会发生
你明白吗？

我不是故意的
说出你的名字真的
我知道你会不开心
昨天你骂我嘴巴贱
我也忍了
你打我的那一下也不轻
我没有防抗
我还能够怎样呢？

我道歉了
就看你是不是要原谅我
这个学期过完后
我觉得你也因该不会在跟我拿同一个时间表了吧？
毕竟你认识的人都比我多
比我好的朋友更加多
哈哈
你开心就好

=）

我说过要开心的
我答应过的
我真的渴望-开心的生活

你的出现
其实我很珍惜
我很想跟你做朋友
也许在乎
也许真心
你这位朋友
我累了
好累好累

你的无理取闹
你的一句话
我都不想记得
因为不想要对你有不好的影响
但是
你的每一次
谢谢啦
累倒不行了

今天起
你只是我的普通朋友
不会再去在乎太多
=）
谢谢你

=)

好几天没来了

今天的我过得还蛮开心的

要谢谢几位朋友

因为有你们在

说了很多

听了很多

笑了很多

让我能够把早上一些不开心的事给忘了

谢谢下课后陪我的wendy

活泼开朗的女生

赞

下来是善良，友善的michelle

很有缘的在block d 的 cafeteria 遇见

聊了一下

友谊的拥抱

谢谢你

晚餐陪我的evelene

谢谢你分享了那么多的你

听了很多

你的故事，我了

要加油哦

×朋友，我很想告诉你，我很想要做你真心的朋友。但是你心中的那堵墙真的让我好累。很难猜测你心中的秘密。你选择不说，我没有关系。我愿意试着去配合你。但是也请你要为身边体谅你的朋友着想。加油啦朋友。

哭了。

在金宝的周末
有点无聊
也很无奈

昨天晚上
不知道为什么
我哭了，很想家，很想家人

躺在床上
很累很累
眼泪也在流

然后不知不觉地
就睡着了
一觉到天亮

心情好了很多
然后忙着准备早午餐
也做好了两份self-reflection  journals

吃了午餐后小睡了一下

其实在早一些
听到了消息说 CM TAN 遇车祸过世了
有一点惊吓到
心情也突然被打扰了

想家的心情开始出现了
再一次的让我感觉到生命短暂
应该享受时就要好好享受
安息吧

今天起，
我的部落各里写的
不会在share到面子书了
因为我发现
如果我没有share就不会有人来看
所以，就算了
还是安分守己
不要去做attention seeker比较好。

谁会了解我？
我真的真的很想哭
为什么我做什么都不对
为什么自己那么犯奸？
不懂
不懂
不懂

days to be remembered =)

Woke up at 6 in the morning.

After wash up only I get to realised that today's class start at 10.

It is too early for me to get up at this time.

Yet I don't sleep again.

This actually served me the chance to update my blog again.

Time flies.

Is already Wednesday of week 2 of this new semester.

Attended my eldest brother's early last Sunday.

The memory is just like the event happened only yesterday.

Our family members haven't been celebrating any happy occasion for about a year.

After my cousin brother got married last year.

And after having so many unwanted events in our family,

Eldest brother's wedding is the one that many are anticipating about it.

Maybe not all but I am pretty sure that it is an important one for my own family members.

Welcome our new family member. <3

Time flies.

Mum had been very busy in and out for about one month.

Everything ended on last Sunday 3/6/2012, after wedding lunch.

Thanks for all my relatives that attended the lunch.

I can feel that my mum is really very happy on that day.

Although everything had come to an end point.

Yet, it marks also another starting point for my brother, sis-in-law and everyone in my family.

I believe, this will be a good one to start for everyone. 

On the day of wedding, 

When everyone had gone back.

I heard a group of boys were still upstairs in the restaurant.

Went up right away to capture the video

Here is the song that sang by them.

Was touched when listening to them.

I can see, I can feel how strong their bond of friendship is.

My brother is blissful in the sense that he had have a bunch of such a good friends and also a lovely wife.

Too bad that the video is too large to be uploaded here >.<

Congratulation bro and welcome sis-in-law.

What is the date of today?

Is 6 of June already.

And today is mummy's birthday.

This year, we have no chance to celebrate for you any more and for forever.

But this date shall never be erased from my memory.

Mummy, happy birthday. Please watch over us at the other place.

Lastly, the most important person that I can't forget

My mum. Thanks fir everything you had did for 4 of us. <3